One more hour to knock off. Seems that i've work yet to be completed, but i'm procrastinating! Ah... the caipeng during lunch is so filling that i feel like sleeping! 吃饱了，要睡觉！

Had dinner at Tanglin Place yesterday with my dearie and his brothers. Darling came to pick me up after work at suntec before that and we had a fun time in starbucks ar! lol... Most of the time i'm tickling him, trying to get him to tell me what he did at ws before he met me! darling, not bad ar, u can keep ur mouth so tight! haha.. Anyway, the restaurant is quite a cool place to chill out. Darling is very greedy man! He wants the 'best of both worlds' so he ordered the BBQ pork ribs and chicken combo! i had lasagna. The food there is really worth the money man.. Nice and they serve american portions! The pork ribs' nice too, but the chicken is abit dry.. so darling, u should just have taken the ribs right! haha.. They ordered red wine too.. Quite nice, not too strong.. Played with darling on the train back, wanting him to tell me the 'secret'! But frankly speaking dear, i know what u're up to liao la! lol! ((:

Today is just another boring day at work. Bored... It's another day nearer to darling's enlistment date. boo boo! And we had to push the chocolate buffet that we've been looking for to 2 weeks later. Hai.. It's ok darling.. by then i can go with my lean and mean darling right! haha.. I'm so tired these 2 days that i k.o once i hit the bed. Shall chiong home after work for a short nap before darling picks me up for supper!! (:

I've made the decisions. Two very important decisions of my future. I cannot turn back time, so what i can do now is to work hard this year. It's my one and only last chance... I really don't wish to screw it... I just ended my 2 years, 1 month and 15 days relationship with him few weeks back. It's still quite painful when i think back sometimes. It's really not as easy as what a lot of people think to maintain a relationship. I did not regret my relationship with him at all. He made me grow up, made me realised a lot of things, made me learnt that my life is not just about him. But i guess somethings are hard to control, and i admit this relationship really caused us to do badly in our exams. I'm sorry boy.

I will never forget the happy memories u've left in my life. Thanks for everything. It's a pity we didn't work out. You once loved me so dearly, and i gave in my heart and soul for our relationship. No one is to be blamed at this stage. Both of us have our shortcomings, we have our faults. You're not obliged to bear with all my nonsense, vice versa. I hope i've been a nice gf to you over the past 2 years. You are a very nice bf. I am really happy we came this far, and i really want to thank you for all that you did for me. All the little little surprises, the hugs, the kisses, the phone calls everynight, the morning calls every morning. It came from the bottom of your heart, no strings attached. I may not tell you before, but i really appreciate it. From the very first gift to me, i never fail to treasure them. I'm real touched by you for giving me that autographed Energy CD, the hiphop figurine in Big Milk Bottle, Ice-cream sticks Pencil Holder you made, Fake flowers for the first bday u celebrate with me. Not to mention the endless supplies of Rocher and Gobstoppers you bought to cheer me up, the Beckham pepsi can, the cute lollipop, the heart handphone chain for our first month, the NOOCH we had during the 4th month, the volleyball trophy you promised me to work hard for and you got the first, the Fossil watch during National Day, the heart shape 'fake' rocher for our 5th month, the Seoul Garden and the bouquet of Rocher you made yourself for our half-year. The ultraman figurines you bring back all the way from Shanghai, and the ring you bought for our 8th month. The kbox session during our 9th month, the crazy christmas eve we celebrated in town, and stayed out the whole night outside esplanade. The very first message to cheer me on the first day of school in year 2, the unforgettable Sentosa trip after much persuassion and whinning. The mondays u came over to tj to lunch with me, the pizza huts session during lunch, the giant tour, the walking me to and fro school. The memorable first valentine's day. The bouquet of BLUE roses you ordered just for me, the jay zhou concert vcd and cd, and the i love you 1314 ultraman. The air dunks and soccer boots we bought together during term break, and the sweetest first year anniversary. The MuVo V200 you gave me, the Suki Sushi we ate, the i love you neoprint we took. The billabong wallet you bought and the bazooka and the promise u made for my birthday, the time u spent with me during my darkest and saddest moment of losing a love one. The box of rocher you gave me during the 13th month, the ENERGY concert tickets you gave me. The time you spent crazying over Energy with me during the concert. The NDP we went together, the fireworks we witnessed together. The never ending encouraging words from you during exam period to cheer me on. The very day we chionged after a'level, the kbox we went, the feast we ate, the xiao long baos we had. The mahjong session over at my place, the duck rice we shared. The very bittersweet 20th month before you're enlisted. The tears i left on you at your place. The Thai Express we ate, the movie we watched, the failed plan to gather our friends for your farewell, the cafe cartel we ate, and the 16 rochers you bought. The buckets i cried when u left my place, the feeling of missing someone is terrible. The first person to see when i wake up after ur 2 weeks of confinement, the unlimited budget u gave me for my xmas present. The chirstmas eve we spent drinking at matt's place, the KING KONG we watched on xmas day. The ultraman cushion you bought for me as my xmas present, the New year day we spent together. The midnight movies we watched, the days you spent bunking over at my place. The chinese new year gathering at your place, the hp u lend me when my died. The 'coat' you bought for me, with the purple necklace. The sponsored HK trip by u, and the beautiful birthday treat at Sizzlers. That's probably the last time i met you. That's probably the last time we held hands. That's probably the last time we can communicate properly. We bummed into each other on saturday. I'm very sure u saw us, maybe it's something that you don't wish to see. Like what u always say to me, i will find a better guy. You know i felt very hurt whenever u tell me that? Anyway, I've found my now. I shouldn't hold you up in finding a better girl anymore. I am not sure if you're angry now, for what you saw on saturday, but i truly want to remain friends with you. It's very sad because u're once a person who knows me inside out, but now we seems to be even more unfamiliar than strangers. I'm very bothered by this. I heard from somewhere that if a couple breaks up, it's hard for them to be friends. I used to think that i'll definitely still be friends with my ex, but i'm proven otherwise. They said because we love each other too deeply to be just only friends. I dunnoe... From the bottom of my heart, i want you to know that i LOVE you truly in these 2 years, 1 month, 15 days. My last regret will be not having enough courage to ask you if u still love me......