It suddenly struck me that my birthday is just 8 days away. For the past 18 years, i celebrated it with no hiccups, but the 19th one is not one that i anticipate. Don't ask me why.

Now everything is like so mess up.. I dunnoe when i can meet up with my monos, because the bf can't confirm a date he's going out with me. But i guess even if he did, there's a high tendency that it'll be cancelled in the end. so in the end i've to put everything on hold, give him the priority, end up spending the day alone. Bad isn't it?

Then again, i shall just let the whole world do the planning la, heard it monos? haha.. i'm so sorry, but i'm sick and tired already. The dates i'm free are Everyday, except 21st itself, because i've gotta spend 1/2 the day at work, and after that i've got 3E tuition.. so dead isn't it.. a bad birthDAY.

Another thing, my birthday is coming, which means his is too. And i haven't got him anything at all, and i can't seem to think of what to buy for him. Because we spent so little time together, i don't even know what he wants now.. Even if i did, i already bought for him during my HK trip le. BOO right. i can't be sure if he's getting anything for me, which he always and always using NS as an excuse to pass away with belated stuffs.

Aiyah, i don't wish to think already lar... Makes me sad only. Sick and Sad makes me old. So why torture myself! (:


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