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wosh.. nine more hours to the deadly saturday. was so damn stressed up just now when jiawei told me about all the appeal facts things. haha. but after toking with CAIRONG!, wow, it's much better liao lar.. haha. thanks alot. thanks to those who helped also! =)

I guess i'll just have to move on with life even though i din get into tj ba. but who noes i may just get into tj wad. haha. regainned some of my confidence while toking to some of them.. realli appreciated their help ar. haha. esp ting, brother and jer, who contributed quite alot to e 'question' i post! haha. i think i'm veri confused right now. i dunno if i shud go tpjc to appeal at the same time also. realli don feel like going back to mj, but in mj, at least i noe quite some familiar faces there, unlike tp, which i will see alot of strange faces, and i need to adapt again to the environment. *mixed feelings*

Don wish to tok bout that matter animore. haha.At least i accomplished something today! i did my ap gp, did sigma, which totally send me to tears! sigma.. horrible! one question took me bout 10 to 15 mins man! that's quite a long time! stop at 2(d), cos i realli need some help! cannot make it man! don feel right in the afternoon. felt quite sick. actualli wanted to cancel the meet-up, but in the end, i went lar. It's not good to give pple a pigeon right! heh heh! went army market todae! alwaes feel so happy when i go there. haha.the trip from pasir ris to lavender was quite terrible. i felt so sick, headache, giddy. all sorts of 'head-related-illness' to me. Sat at the extreme head and slept throughout the journey. luckily din miss my stop! Was alright after the walk in army market, thou i din get wad i want. the 'hip-hop' pants were way too big! so big that it can drop off if i pull. so went bugis to shop, and again, din get wad i want. becos those pants are mostly for guys, which are in guys store, that's y i don dare to ask the sales person for smaller size! haha.terrible man! Checked out the Amore hiphop klass, and it's like 45 per mth. abit too ex liao ba. i tink i going to check out the community centre. oh yah, haha, i din go for gym todae. bleh.. =/

don feel like sleeping tonight. It's alreadi 1:27am, but i'm still veri awake, despite waking up at 10+ this morning. That's unlike me. haha. maybe i will turn in at arnd 3am. (he was once my hero) haha. i guess i'm realli stressed up just now. i ate a whole container of honeydew which my mummy just sliced. quite frightening when i realised that there's like onli one or two pieces left!

Watching frontline just now. Talked about the two 15 years old students who jumped off the building. One of them is from Loyang sec. His reason for suicide: caught by his teacher for dating in sch. The other girl in Cedar Sec: Caught stealing a handphone, den the sch wanted her to confess to her parents, which i think she don dare. At times, i used to think of the pain when one jumped off the building. i mean like if u die on the spot, will u still feel that pain? the agony? cannot imagine! After watching my mummy was telling me like if i did anything wrong, just confess, there's no need to be scared of. No one will not forgive a child who admit their mistake. Everyone does make mistake as well. My mummy is so 'ming zhu'. wad's that in english? haha. I don tink i will do silly things becos of wad happen in sch ba. i mean the teachers cannot do anithing too serious also. we'll still have to face them wad. too far a price to pay if i will just jump off n end my life. LIFE IS PRECIOUS!